I have been a professional software developer for over a decade and I have been writing code for over 25 years.
However, sometimes I still feel like a fraud.
It turns out, I am not the only one that feels this way and they have a name for it, it is called “Imposter Syndrome”.
xkcd: Imposter Syndrome
Have you ever felt like you don’t know what you are doing? Do you feel like you aren’t good enough for your job, that you don’t deserve to be where you are in life?
That everyone else seems to know more than you do and your are just stumbling along working things out as you go along. One of these days they are going to find out you don’t know what you are doing!
If you have, you likely suffered from imposter syndrome.
Dictionary.com defines this as:
anxiety or self-doubt that results from persistently undervaluing one’s competence and active role in achieving success, while falsely attributing one’s accomplishments to luck or other external forces.
Essentially, imposter syndrome comes about when you doubt your abilities.
It is common in all careers but I think it is especially apparent in the software development industry.
We are constantly having to keep up with technologies and learn new skills. As such, it is impossible to be able to know everything. There will always be gaps in your knowledge and someone else is bound to know something that you don’t.
Anyone who has worked in frontend development will relate to this. With new frameworks coming out every year, it can feel like you are constantly on a hamster wheel never getting to the finish line. You dedicate your time to learning Angular just to find out that everyone is switching to React or Vue, and now you are back to square one.
This becomes especially apparent when you start to specialise in a particular area. The more time you dedicate to one subject, the less time you are going to have to learn about new things.
This always reminds me of this quote:
You learn more and more about less and less until you know absolutely everything about nothing. - Nicholas Butler
I would consider myself a full stack developer. I know enough technologies to be able to take a product from idea to production including, frontend, backend, database and infrastructure.
However, I specialise in backend development. My frontend knowledge is limited to creating my own personal projects or updating existing projects. I wouldn’t say I was up to date with the latest best practices. My database knowledge is fairly good but I don’t know as much as a dedicated DBA. My infrastructure knowledge is getting better but I am constantly learning from my colleagues.
What makes matters worse is something called the Dunning-Kruger effect. Another definition, this time from Wikipedia:
The Dunning–Kruger effect is a hypothetical cognitive bias stating that people with low ability at a task overestimate their ability.
With the “Anyone Can Code” movement (which I am not entirely against) we have more and more people who know just enough to be dangerous. In some cases, they have only just started and think because they can put an HTML page together that they suddenly know all there is to know. Or they might have a couples of years experience and have got very good at one thing.
These people tend to have a lot of confidence, as they are unaware at just how clueless they are about everything they don’t know.
Whereas those of us with many years experience under our belt, understand that there is a lot that we don’t know and therefore you shouldn’t get too cocky with what you can do.
However, as we end up feeling inadequate we are less likely to share what we do know with the world.
So know that you understand what imposter syndrome is (and probably relate to a lot of it), how do we deal with this?
A lot of us tend to downplay our accomplishments. Maybe you have just done a difficult release, managed to solve a bug that has been driving your team mad or even just completing your work for the sprint on time.
If you just move on to the next task without patting yourself on the back it can feel like you aren’t accomplishing anything.
I recommend you write down your achievements. This is especially important when it comes to review time and you need to tell your boss why you should get a pay rise.
This is something that I am trying to do more. Push myself out of my comfort zone and get out there and share what I know.
Whether this is via blog, company talk, Instagram, Twitter or YouTube, sharing is an important part of giving back to the development community and helping aspiring engineers improve their skills.
I forget that I have been writing code for 25 years and end up thinking that I haven’t got anything worth sharing. However, not everyone is in the same place you are. Even if you are just starting out there is going to be someone who doesn’t know what you know and would benefit from your knowledge.
So don’t be afraid to get out there and start that blog that you have been putting off for years.
It is always nice to know that you have helped others and it can stop you from feeling like a fraud.
This is my motto for life and the number 1 advice I give to others, “Be Humble”. Once you realise that you do actually know more than other people it can be difficult to keep your ego in check (how do you get your head out of the door?).
So remind yourself to always be humble. Don’t look down on others that don’t know as much as you, as I can guarantee they know more than you about a different topic.
Don’t be afraid to ask questions, even if you think it will make you look stupid. Chances are that if you don’t know the answer there will be someone else who doesn’t either. It is always better to clarify something than assume.
Never ASSUME as it will make an ASS out of U and ME
No matter how much you know, there is going to be plenty of things you are clueless about. Instead of getting down about it, take the opportunity to learn more and share your knowledge with others.
Hopefully, this post will be helpful for those going through something similar.