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whenwillitbe — Sat, 16 Mar 2024 17:54:36 +0000

i think my p is getting big it seems it has reached 5' 6"

Ahh don't know what to entitle it

whenwillitbe — Sun, 10 Mar 2024 18:01:45 +0000

It has been some rough days for me , wish i just turn one afternoon so big that i can get the profit of a month but lack of customers won't get away from me. I am just a bit bucks away from purchasing the stall but will have to keep it in mind that storing something for a nice rent apartment will be great , it ain't good sleeping on the rough rock.

Bots?

whenwillitbe — Thu, 07 Mar 2024 06:26:47 +0000

Was thinking that at least some guys are watching my blogs daily but didn't its just the bot views way too much work and no response kind of think that my real life is more better as earning these pennies is at least saving me some shit talk.
After all no one is forcing me to write this shit its just the spare time that people waste in washroom maybe this site is toilet of mine, or maybe its the affection of mine to talk out all the secrets ahh shit that depressed feeling again can't motivate myself to do something, was it all supposed to go like this.
Sometimes i feel like this is all karma but of what wrong? cant be lookin out for the answer it will just waste more time and money maybe all the efforts now will go in vain still remember the stories my father used to tell me about their family struggle to earn this lot that i wasted on my stupid worthless lifestyle ohh fate look at me now gone crazy sharing shit with the one who should run out for their lives.

Cleared

whenwillitbe — Tue, 05 Mar 2024 15:02:36 +0000

Giving a stay to parents dependent life has taught many things being honest the only thing i ever wanted to did was walk on my own and maybe i am doing it now except that it all just started from a few bucks that someone gave me(i begged).
But i will be honest that this all was crazy, cool , or whatever you might call it , i think the upcoming days will be some ass work of days.
The park might be a lot of hustle bustle place kinda thinking to start a new fries stall there but will have to think about someway to save money for the stall right now its an ant dream for a rocket but small steps are gonna be the helper.
thinking of buying some new clothes as my current clothes are kinda scaring kids no chill why they ain't coming close , also can't forget how the granma was flirting chill old lady i ain't that old or dying for p**sy

Improved?

whenwillitbe — Sun, 03 Mar 2024 15:42:52 +0000

Don't know about my love with questioning but it seems like the habit is better in its own. Coming back to my story I have tried to improve my business(selling ice creams on beach till now) well for now its going a bit better.
At least now i have confirmed myself that the day and night will not pass with an empty tummy. without food everything seems to be passing in a lot oof dizziness , i know it has been a day of not writing anything but believe it the day before was one of the best in my life.
Been first time for me to ever eat anything from my own money except of begging from strangers or parents. Well have nothing much to discuss about today , eh guess will see you guys another day not simply for tomorrow.

Improved?

whenwillitbe — Sun, 03 Mar 2024 15:42:49 +0000

Little Little

whenwillitbe — Fri, 01 Mar 2024 13:17:42 +0000

Days have past sleeping on the park bench seems like sleeping on rocks, the money i earned last night will be enough to buy a night tent but thinking of it , is it worth it. I mean i have already spent more than a few days on the bench and it isn't that bad making me think i cant waste the bills i earned with hardship on not of worth brands.
Will have to think of something else than selling water on beach takes lot of time to earn a few bucks plus you have to slay your ass under sunset for literally half a day. Maybe selling ice creams will be worth a chance will have to buy ice and bucket to keep them cold , fine if God wants me to suffer like this then why not suffer?
The world doesn't seems like a helpful place after all this heaven has devils walking around everywhere dressed like a human. Have you ever thought these people slaying there ass to get some dollars will help you , don't get angry are you slaying your ass off so that your boss can take all of your work credits. It is what it is after all am not the one depending on others look around yourself note that its not the wings that the devil is hiding its the horn he doesn't wants you to notice.
Sometimes a beggar is more helpful than the king at least the differences between you and the beggar are less than the mountain of differences between you and the king. Think before choosing.

Self Improvement.

whenwillitbe — Thu, 29 Feb 2024 17:02:45 +0000

The person in train turned out to be an angel , He bought some food for me that helped me saving some dollars bill will it be same for me the next few days ,can't say that people now doesn't seems to be that helpful they give it when they get it from somewhere cant judge well.
pretty good for me homeless(maybe a beggar, which i have practically done, it seems like that i am exaggerating well don't have anything else to write.)to write that much of an life fucked para into breezed essay, Got have to think for an idea to generate income or will die in the late night wealth.

Luck?

whenwillitbe — Thu, 29 Feb 2024 05:55:56 +0000

Being a Destitute guy this Monday was something what i can call lucky for me , the guy gave me some penny hope can eat something don't know why just sharing this online but begging does seems to be like i have to glorify the one from i am begging from, don't know how can i generate a source for my income but these penny does seems to be a way. Do i have to loose hope? James seems to ignore me but it doesn't matters what he is thinking he will realize when he suffers the same. The crowd seems to be wandering lazy , will have to earn and benefit myself from there laziness it seems this guy has got the spirit to do it.
Thank you for wasting your time going through my words.

When it will get over?

whenwillitbe — Mon, 26 Feb 2024 18:16:30 +0000

Nothing just feeling little bit depressive, thought about doing many things but the first step always seems to be difficult, no matter how much shorter the journey is supposed to be. It seems like i am the only one remaining in friend circle left behind still thinking about what to do , James seems to be hiding his something ,wasn't I helpful to him when there was no one listening him. Maybe helping others has set a limit to my growth nothing seems joyful nowadays , wasting time on scrolling on web surfaces . nothing just depressed with whatever you might call , well doesn't matters to anyone everyone has to look out for themselves after all they deserve a moment of relief too. Nothing left in pockets too its my 3rd day of sleeping with nothing in this trash can even the shopkeeper is getting tired of me asking him to charge this old piece of trash which has an very rare extinct cable , might be a little awkward ,depressing ,hopeless or whatever you it. But only the suffering one knows how it is to be at this stage of life aha made someone a little sad. Please be hopeful no one deserves to be here . I helped James what if he didn't helped me , it doesn't matters i will help him again if he needs me. the fact is that no one deserves to be left alone. thinking why you reading this shit friend you have the same story as mine maybe you are the James or me. Well at least You have hope an i don't........(wont read it again to look out for mistake's)