The latest articles on DEV Community by Maxime Moreau (@mx). https://dev.to/mx https://media2.dev.to/dynamic/image/width=90,height=90,fit=cover,gravity=auto,format=auto/https:%2F%2Fdev-to-uploads.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fuploads%2Fuser%2Fprofile_image%2F24957%2F2b4f343c-6397-43de-bc90-2809c8edc843.jpeg https://dev.to/mx en Maxime Moreau Tue, 10 Mar 2020 10:09:41 +0000 https://dev.to/mx/i-m-loosing-my-enthusiasm-to-code-5cg4 https://dev.to/mx/i-m-loosing-my-enthusiasm-to-code-5cg4 <p>Hi dev community! This is my first post here, and I'm excited to be part of this.<br> I was hoping to start with a better post, but I really need to talk about this topic, I need your advices :)</p> <p>I just got a new position at work, but I'm less and less enthusiasm to code and I feel bad about it.<br> It's been some months that I have this feeling, and today I'm kind of scared because I'm young! And by the way, I'm loosing my productivity, and that's really bad.</p> <h2> About me </h2> <p>A little bit of background.</p> <p>I'm Maxime, a 21 years old, I live in France, and I am some kind of full stack developer. I'm saying "kind of" full stack, because I do a lot of stuff, doing some data analysis, build dashboards, web applications... And that's soooo cool.</p> <p>I started coding when I was 14 years old. I've started with HTML/CSS and quicky got introduced to PHP and I fall in love. By the time I was in trouble with my personal life, and yeah programming saved me. <strong>I found the best therapy: programming, yes I find coding therapeutic.</strong></p> <p>I've never stoped to work hard by this time, when I was back to school, I was coding. When I was on vacation, the same. I loved that, and thanks to this hard work I've quickly developed my career.</p> <p>At 18 years old, I got one year apprenticeship contract in a young startup as a front end developer. I was working two weeks and then studying 2 weeks. By the end of the year, I was configuring servers with Ansible, produced NodeJS services and so one, I've got a lof of responsability in little time. Such a great year but it was <strong>such a pain</strong>. My manager was such an asshole, and I refused to continue there. I was only 19 years old and I refused a permanent position, people thought I was crasy but I wasn't, hard decision to make and support.</p> <p>After that year, I got a 3 years contract at Airbus as an apprentice software engineer and today I'm still there.<br> So I'm a computer science student in France working at Airbus, everything is fine isn't it? What could be bad? Nothing on the paper.</p> <h2> The confusing part </h2> <p>I've used to work on side projects after work/school, always. But now, for 6 months I'm not working after work anymore because I don't feel it.<br> Sometimes I do, but much less than I've used to!<br> I'm playing video games, watching Netflix series, reach friends and so one, but almost never coding/learning.</p> <p>I don't know why, <strong>I feel guilty for not working that hard anymore</strong>, but at the same time <strong>I know this is normal because I worked too much I have to take time for myself</strong>.</p> <p>I'm really confused, do anybody already dealt with this feeling, do you have any advice? Such a strange situation...</p> <p>Thank you so much!<br> Have a nice day, happy coding.</p> discuss help career