Hi, I am 32 years old when writing this first post. The target audience of this post is mainly me, myself. At certain stages of my life, mostly after the age of 30, I have a tendency to look back at my life. I decided to pen it down so that I can review & reflect on any decisions later on.
If a blank page would represent my life. Then all these while, all I ever did was following what any others would have done. With a default black pencil in my possession, we fill up the empty page with sketches and drawings. We were taught the same things and without any significant efforts, we are done with our drawings.
While we follow through the processes, some acquired better tools, some improved their drawing skills. We tell ourselves we did great all along, continuing down this path, maybe one day we can even create 3D art with black markers and black drawing tools. Compared to those less fortunate, I am contented with the default tools which we were given and the ability to draw on our blank page.
Lately, I realize, what I ever did was wandering in this world of black and white. For the past 30 years, like many others, I've only worked towards improving or retouching the black and white masterpiece. This is not what I chose, I do not want to continue this for the rest of my life. I want a colorful piece of art at the end of my life. I want to earn tools that can add color content to my life. It was not an easy decision to make, but I decided to throw away my current "not bad" piece of black and white art. I broke all my black markers/pencils, leaving myself with only a blank canvas. This is where I choose to restart. This is where I shall pursue color in life.
While I hope I can start to add color to my blank canvas. I will start by getting the tools that I need. I may end up with just a blank canvas or a lousy colored piece of work. But it is a choice I made, a dream I wanted to pursue, and a path I would like to walk. Considering my age, although not early, I am still grateful that I have the chance to execute this. I am thankful for the support I have gotten, and now with all my strength, I will step into this new path =)