The Evening I Realised I Was Becoming My Own Boss

I was responding to customer support emails on a Wednesday evening when I had a moment of realisation that stopped me mid-sentence. Id been crafting a response to a user who was requesting a refund for credits theyd purchased but hadnt used, and I found myself thinking: What would I want my boss to do in this situation?

Then it hit me: I was my own boss. There was no manager to consult, no company policy to reference, no supervisor to approve my decision. The choice about how to handle this customers request was entirely mine, and whatever I decided would reflect my values and business philosophy.

The realisation was both liberating and terrifying. For the first time, I truly understood that running SnackPDF meant being responsible for every decision, every policy, and every interaction with users. I wasnt just following someone elses guidelines or implementing predetermined procedures I was creating the culture and values that would define how the business operated.

I approved the refund immediately, not because I had to, but because it felt like the right thing to do. The user had a legitimate reason for not using their credits, and maintaining their goodwill was more important than protecting a small amount of revenue. But the decision process made me acutely aware of the weight of responsibility that came with being in charge.

Over the following days, I started noticing other moments when my role as boss became apparent. When deciding whether to implement a requested feature, I had to balance user needs against development time and resources. When setting prices for new service tiers, I had to consider both market dynamics and my own financial goals. When choosing how to respond to criticism, I had to think about the long-term reputation and values I wanted SnackPDF to embody.

The transition from employee mindset to owner mindset was gradual but profound. In previous jobs and university projects, Id been accountable to others for my performance and decisions. But with SnackPDF, I was accountable primarily to myself and to the users who depended on the service. The external structure and oversight that had previously guided my work was replaced by internal motivation and self-direction.

This shift brought unexpected challenges. Without a boss to provide feedback, set priorities, or make difficult decisions, I had to develop these capabilities myself. I had to learn to evaluate my own performance objectively, set realistic goals, and maintain motivation during difficult periods.

The freedom was exhilarating but also overwhelming. I could work whenever I wanted, pursue whatever features interested me, and structure the business according to my own values and priorities. But I also had to accept full responsibility for the consequences of every choice, from technical decisions to customer service policies.

One of the most significant adjustments was learning to make decisions without consensus or external validation. In group projects at university, decisions emerged through discussion and compromise. In traditional employment, managers provided direction and approval. But as the sole decision-maker for SnackPDF, I had to develop confidence in my own judgment and accept that some decisions would inevitably be wrong.

The customer service interaction that had triggered this realisation became a template for how I wanted to operate as a business owner. I decided that SnackPDF would err on the side of generosity and customer satisfaction, even when it meant short-term financial costs. This philosophy guided subsequent decisions about refunds, feature requests, and user support.

I also realised that being my own boss meant being responsible for my own professional development. There was no HR department to arrange training, no manager to identify skill gaps, and no structured career progression to follow. I had to actively seek out learning opportunities, identify areas for improvement, and invest in developing the capabilities needed to grow the business.

The experience taught me about the importance of creating structure and accountability systems when youre self-employed. Without external oversight, its easy to become either too lenient or too demanding with yourself. I started setting regular goals, conducting honest self-evaluations, and seeking feedback from users and mentors to maintain perspective on my performance.

Being my own boss also meant accepting the emotional ups and downs that come with entrepreneurial responsibility. When SnackPDF succeeded, I could take full credit for the achievement. But when things went wrong, I had to accept full responsibility for the failures. The emotional intensity of both success and failure was amplified by the knowledge that the outcomes were directly tied to my decisions and efforts.

The realisation also influenced how I thought about work-life balance and personal well-being. As an employee, you can leave work at the office and disconnect from professional responsibilities. But as a business owner, the line between personal and professional life becomes blurred. SnackPDFs success or failure affected not just my income, but my identity and self-worth.

Learning to manage this emotional investment while maintaining perspective and balance became an ongoing challenge. I had to develop the ability to care deeply about the business while not letting its performance completely determine my mood or self-esteem.

Six months after that Wednesday evening realisation, I felt much more comfortable with my role as SnackPDFs decision-maker and leader. The initial anxiety about making wrong choices had been replaced by confidence in my ability to learn from mistakes and adapt to changing circumstances.

The experience also taught me about the different types of intelligence and skills required for entrepreneurial success. Technical ability and business knowledge were important, but equally crucial were emotional intelligence, decision-making capability, and the resilience to handle uncertainty and responsibility.

I began to understand why many people prefer traditional employment despite the potential limitations. Being your own boss requires a level of self-direction, risk tolerance, and emotional resilience that not everyone wants to develop or maintain. The security and structure of traditional employment have genuine value that shouldnt be underestimated.

But for me, the realisation that I was my own boss was ultimately empowering rather than intimidating. It meant that SnackPDFs future was limited only by my own vision, effort, and capabilities. Every success was earned, every failure was a learning opportunity, and every decision was an expression of my values and priorities.

Looking back, that evening when I truly understood my role as SnackPDFs leader was a crucial moment in my development as an entrepreneur. It marked the transition from thinking like someone who worked on a business to thinking like someone who owned and directed a business.

SnackPDF at https://www.snackpdf.com continues to operate according to the values and principles I established during that period of realisation. The customer-first philosophy, the commitment to fair pricing, and the emphasis on reliable service all stem from decisions I made when I first understood the weight and freedom of being my own boss.

That experience taught me that entrepreneurship isnt just about building products or generating revenue its about taking responsibility for creating the kind of business and workplace culture you believe in, and accepting the challenges and rewards that come with that level of autonomy and accountability.

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Im Calum Kerr, a Computer Science student at Edinburgh Napier University building SnackPDF and RevisePDF. Follow my journey!