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Discussion on: On Dealing with Anxiety and Depression as a Developer

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CrystalSpiegelmacher

While this is all well and good, I think it's important to realize some of this is stopgap stuff. The shy, frightened kid, the awkward, bashful teen, the socially anxious young adult. That isn't you in the past, that's you in the always.

Relics of those past yous still exist, as shards of sentience in your subconscious. Perhaps suppressed. You have to engage with them. Make deals with them. "I will go to work all week, if you forgive, and let go of, that one thing."

Developers can get so hyper-logical, sometimes as a coping mechanism, which can leave you very physically clenched and emotionally tangled. That's unhealthy. I think its good to accept that your psychological existence is inexplicable. Almost magical, if you will.

Sometimes awareness feels like the isometric cube doodle, that flip-flops between pointing one way or the other. Awareness can flip-flop instantly from rational to fearful. You gain mastery of that teetering by knowing who you are, which is the foundation of self-confidence.

I think working on your psychology, bravely, is an important long term goal, just as incumbent upon you as a career, and you can do both.