I don't know if this is very relevant to the post, but I feel ashamed that I don't fit in with the stereotypical programmer geek. I'm one of the few women in my class who chose to pursue programming as a job after graduate. Most girls feel like they don't fit in, feel inferior, and chose to do other related work (e.g. product owner).
It wasn't really about gender, but it does play a role. What's most shameful is the fact that I'm not devoting all my time coding. I have other hobbies unrelated to programming (and photography, idk why but my "geek" friends tend to do these 2 things).
Most of the time I feel like I don't master this language/framework/tools enough to creatively and efficiently use it. That I'm not writing the most efficient code. I have this friend who likes to complain how people codes are bad (which I learnt from him a lot), and that put my confidence down lower than ever..
I'm trying to work on that, but it's exhausting sometimes not having people similar to you in the field or as a representative.
Coding has never been my hobby, and I've been super successful just by doing it at work. Those people who are looking at code 12 hours a day will, in all likelyhood, be burnt out in 5 years.
And keep in mind anyone questioning a new coder for their commitment is, i guarantee, insecure! Experienced devs confident in their skills don't question others.
I don't know if this is very relevant to the post, but I feel ashamed that I don't fit in with the stereotypical programmer geek. I'm one of the few women in my class who chose to pursue programming as a job after graduate. Most girls feel like they don't fit in, feel inferior, and chose to do other related work (e.g. product owner).
It wasn't really about gender, but it does play a role. What's most shameful is the fact that I'm not devoting all my time coding. I have other hobbies unrelated to programming (and photography, idk why but my "geek" friends tend to do these 2 things).
Most of the time I feel like I don't master this language/framework/tools enough to creatively and efficiently use it. That I'm not writing the most efficient code. I have this friend who likes to complain how people codes are bad (which I learnt from him a lot), and that put my confidence down lower than ever..
I'm trying to work on that, but it's exhausting sometimes not having people similar to you in the field or as a representative.
Coding has never been my hobby, and I've been super successful just by doing it at work. Those people who are looking at code 12 hours a day will, in all likelyhood, be burnt out in 5 years.
And keep in mind anyone questioning a new coder for their commitment is, i guarantee, insecure! Experienced devs confident in their skills don't question others.
I see. Thank you so much! Also, seeing how you are confident to be yourself in this field has given me so much inspiration too!