The Technical Win
After countless hours and way too much coffee, I finally cracked authentication on the frontend. Nothing fancy, but it works, it's clean, and it doesn't make me want to throw my laptop out the window. Small wins, right?
The catch? I did this running on exactly 3 hours of sleep. Post-gym, pre-everything else, in that weird state where your brain is simultaneously sharp and completely fried.
The Big Decision
Here's where things get interesting. I've been juggling frontend, backend, trying to be the full-stack golden child that every startup wants. But today I made a call that might sound crazy:
I'm stopping backend study
Wait, what? Let me explain the logic:
- If I get a fullstack offer, I'll learn backend on the job (sink or swim style)
- If only frontend offers come through, I'm perfectly fine with that
- If nothing comes through... well, that tells me something too
The Uncomfortable Truth
I have what I call the "most useless skill" - knowing various stuff but not being great at any single thing. Surface-level knowledge in frameworks, decent understanding of concepts, but nowhere near mastery in anything specific.
Most people would call this a weakness. I'm starting to think it might be my secret weapon.
Instead of fighting it, I'm doubling down on two areas where this breadth actually helps:
UI/UX - where understanding multiple technologies helps you design better interfaces
AI/ML - where knowing various domains helps you see applications others miss
The 6-Year Countdown
Here's my version of do-or-die: be successful by 25 or... well, let's not think about the alternative. Six years to figure this out. No pressure, right?
This isn't some motivational poster nonsense. It's a genuine decision point. Either I crack the code on entrepreneurship and building something meaningful, or I accept that maybe I'm not cut out for this path.
The Startup Reality Check
Speaking of entrepreneurship - had another "fun" interaction with co-founder today. Second time she's shown up late to our scheduled calls. This time, her excuse was that I should have texted instead of called... after explicitly agreeing that I would call.
I walked out.
Not because I'm dramatic, but because I'm tired of people assuming that just because I don't constantly broadcast how "busy" I am, my time has no value. If you can't respect basic commitments, how are we supposed to build something together?
The College Dilemma
There's this growing tension I can't ignore. The more I focus on actual building - coding, startups, internship applications - the more I worry about college exams. Something's going to give, and I have a feeling it won't be the building.
Is this sustainable? Probably not. Am I going to keep doing it anyway? Absolutely.
Random Observations
- PearX pitch video still needs to be done (procrastination is real)
- Some random girl started showing interest but honestly, everyone feels tiresome when you're running on fumes
- Gym session was surprisingly good despite the sleep deprivation
- Authentication module works and I understand why it works (victory)
What's Next?
Tomorrow I'll probably make another questionable decision about sleep vs. productivity. I'll continue building, continue applying, continue trying to figure out if I'm onto something or just delusional.
But here's the thing - even if I'm delusional, at least I'm building real things while being delusional. That has to count for something, right?
The authentication works. The countdown continues. Six years to go.
This is part of my daily building in public series. Follow along for more questionable life decisions and occasional technical wins.
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