The Work Stuff
Pretty average day on the surface. Finally finished the California housing dataset, yeah I'm aware I'm a week behind on my ML schedule but I'm pacing through it. Not panicking, just consistently chipping away at the backlog.
Did a leetcode problem today. Maintaining momentum even after the streak broke. The number doesn't matter as much as the habit.
Updated the frontend for 3 pages on project mutiny. It's interesting juggling ML learning with actual project work. They inform each other in weird ways, the ML concepts make me think differently about features, and building real things makes the theory more concrete.
The Social Thing
Tried some social stuff today. I'm terrible at it, always have been. But I'm glad I did it because it triggered this realization.
I was ready to give everything for people who left me. Just because I hated myself back then, I thought I needed them to validate my existence. I'd bend over backwards for people who couldn't even stick around when things got hard.
Disgusting honestly. Not them, me. For being that desperate.
But here's the thing, I like myself now. Actually like myself. And when you genuinely like yourself, you stop needing people who only showed up when you were easier to deal with.
The Card Flip
So yeah, I like myself now. And that means I hate everyone who left when I didn't. That's how the cards go for me.
Not in an edgy way. Just in a "you showed me where you stand, so now I know where we stand" way. When you stop hating yourself, you get really clear on who actually matters and who was just around for convenience.
Day 10 Done
Some days you code, some days you have realizations about yourself. Today was both.
California dataset complete. Leetcode done. Mutiny progress made. And a clearer understanding of where I stand with people.
That's day 10.
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