As a senior FE developer, I wanted to encourage you to take time to rest, to let yourself find the best time to learn things, and when to take breaks. Scheduling out every moment of your day is going to leave you either exhausted because you got your immense task list done, or frustrated that you didn't measure up to your own high bar. Taking this time to reflect on what you want to do is great. But it doesn't seem like you're changing your plans based on this new insight. Instead, if you are job seeking - look at what you learned from each interview. Are you applying for the right positions? Are you overlooking opportunities you might find successful? You sound like you might be something called a multipotentialite ( look it up or visit puttylike.com/start-here/ ) which means you want to have many different interests going at once, and there are special challenges for that. What is your real goal? Is it to get a job? Or is it to feel successful creating things like games and music?
If you just want to get a job, then you need to take a look at who you are right now in terms of skills and apply for jobs that meet that. If you want to be successful making games and things, then don't wait for a job to come around to do those, do them now!
I know some folks who really like having their whole day planned out. I feel that for you this will be a pretty constrictive thing. Instead, perhaps place some goals for a given day, but not so much that if you have other things come up you wont achieve them. You don't want to get burned out.
If you don't listen to anything else I say, please just hear this: be more gentle to yourself. Get enough sleep. Eat right foods. Go for walks. If you do those things, you will find you have the resources to take on your other challenges.
Thank you for this response. I had to reread this over and over again because this has been such a stressful situation for me, but I'm sure there are people who have it harder. I wish I can say that I've learned something from an interview, but I've never had an interview, since my application is always rejected before ever reaching to that stage. I'm usually applying for software engineer positions because of finishing a bootcamp, but since I also try to get involve with the Game-Dev scene here in Seattle, I try to pick up the tools for that too.
I think what I always thought was separating the two things, to keep the Game-Dev or Music stuff on the side and not put it in my resume, just for my tech resume, or my social media brand, but my career mentor from school encouraged me to add the game-dev/music experience in a sense of showing everything if I tailor the wording to apply to tech.
The whole schedule thing is something I would see with a lot of my friends in order to be productive, and I thought I was the weird one who didn't work with a schedule like that. I understand that everyone's productivity works differently, I guess putting in too much detail will be daunting to always try to achieve those.
According to looking up about the Multipotentialite, I do feel like it. Before, I was wanting to just focus on music, music related, audio related work, until discovering programming and developing a newfound passion with this too. I do aim to combine the two passions, but it is where the paths cross, the material is difficult to grasp for me at this time right now. Hence, why I find Audio Software Engineer positions that sparked my interests, but feel way too underqualified for them at the moment.
I get other advice from other software friends in the industry who tell me to just give up the music/audio/game side at the moment and fully focus on tech, which is pretty disheartening to hear because of just having grown up with the music/audio/game side, but they just want to see me succeed into tech as well. I think it's the pressure I face upon myself whenever I go and meet tech people at tech meetups and when I go to any-skill-background of people at game-dev meetups.
Thanks a lot again for your response, it makes me think that there probably is still more reflecting I need to do on myself.
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As a senior FE developer, I wanted to encourage you to take time to rest, to let yourself find the best time to learn things, and when to take breaks. Scheduling out every moment of your day is going to leave you either exhausted because you got your immense task list done, or frustrated that you didn't measure up to your own high bar. Taking this time to reflect on what you want to do is great. But it doesn't seem like you're changing your plans based on this new insight. Instead, if you are job seeking - look at what you learned from each interview. Are you applying for the right positions? Are you overlooking opportunities you might find successful? You sound like you might be something called a multipotentialite ( look it up or visit puttylike.com/start-here/ ) which means you want to have many different interests going at once, and there are special challenges for that. What is your real goal? Is it to get a job? Or is it to feel successful creating things like games and music?
If you just want to get a job, then you need to take a look at who you are right now in terms of skills and apply for jobs that meet that. If you want to be successful making games and things, then don't wait for a job to come around to do those, do them now!
I know some folks who really like having their whole day planned out. I feel that for you this will be a pretty constrictive thing. Instead, perhaps place some goals for a given day, but not so much that if you have other things come up you wont achieve them. You don't want to get burned out.
If you don't listen to anything else I say, please just hear this: be more gentle to yourself. Get enough sleep. Eat right foods. Go for walks. If you do those things, you will find you have the resources to take on your other challenges.
Thank you for this response. I had to reread this over and over again because this has been such a stressful situation for me, but I'm sure there are people who have it harder. I wish I can say that I've learned something from an interview, but I've never had an interview, since my application is always rejected before ever reaching to that stage. I'm usually applying for software engineer positions because of finishing a bootcamp, but since I also try to get involve with the Game-Dev scene here in Seattle, I try to pick up the tools for that too.
I think what I always thought was separating the two things, to keep the Game-Dev or Music stuff on the side and not put it in my resume, just for my tech resume, or my social media brand, but my career mentor from school encouraged me to add the game-dev/music experience in a sense of showing everything if I tailor the wording to apply to tech.
The whole schedule thing is something I would see with a lot of my friends in order to be productive, and I thought I was the weird one who didn't work with a schedule like that. I understand that everyone's productivity works differently, I guess putting in too much detail will be daunting to always try to achieve those.
According to looking up about the Multipotentialite, I do feel like it. Before, I was wanting to just focus on music, music related, audio related work, until discovering programming and developing a newfound passion with this too. I do aim to combine the two passions, but it is where the paths cross, the material is difficult to grasp for me at this time right now. Hence, why I find Audio Software Engineer positions that sparked my interests, but feel way too underqualified for them at the moment.
I get other advice from other software friends in the industry who tell me to just give up the music/audio/game side at the moment and fully focus on tech, which is pretty disheartening to hear because of just having grown up with the music/audio/game side, but they just want to see me succeed into tech as well. I think it's the pressure I face upon myself whenever I go and meet tech people at tech meetups and when I go to any-skill-background of people at game-dev meetups.
Thanks a lot again for your response, it makes me think that there probably is still more reflecting I need to do on myself.