Genuine question, I'm hoping you can help me with something.
Why are you perceived as slow? How is "progress" measured?
I get that maybe you don't "show your incomplete state" and that you tackle the harder parts first (kudos, by the way).
But surely, judging two people on the same team, for one to be "slow" there should be some measurable metric, such as number of tickets (or story points) completed within a given time frame? And surely the comparison would be made fairly (e.g., your profile lists you as a Senior, so you should be compared to another Senior).
Is it just your inner monologue that deems you slow, or is someone telling you that you're slow?
For what it's worth, I equate slow with careful, deliberate, healthy progress. Though naturally there are limits when deadlines loom.
For me it's almost entirely inner monologue. I have received feedback that I should make work visible sooner rather than later, but most of my feelings of "slowness" are internally derived. I'm 43 and still working on accepting myself for who I am and how I work 😬
That sounds a lot like Imposter Syndrome to me. In our work environment, if I have someone talking to me about similar thoughts, I pull up the reports in Jira & break it down, use the system we have to demonstrate that they don't have an issue.
Might not help long term, but seems like it does for a few minutes at least.
Genuine question, I'm hoping you can help me with something.
Why are you perceived as slow? How is "progress" measured?
I get that maybe you don't "show your incomplete state" and that you tackle the harder parts first (kudos, by the way).
But surely, judging two people on the same team, for one to be "slow" there should be some measurable metric, such as number of tickets (or story points) completed within a given time frame? And surely the comparison would be made fairly (e.g., your profile lists you as a Senior, so you should be compared to another Senior).
Is it just your inner monologue that deems you slow, or is someone telling you that you're slow?
For what it's worth, I equate slow with careful, deliberate, healthy progress. Though naturally there are limits when deadlines loom.
For me it's almost entirely inner monologue. I have received feedback that I should make work visible sooner rather than later, but most of my feelings of "slowness" are internally derived. I'm 43 and still working on accepting myself for who I am and how I work 😬
Thanks for the reply.
That sounds a lot like Imposter Syndrome to me. In our work environment, if I have someone talking to me about similar thoughts, I pull up the reports in Jira & break it down, use the system we have to demonstrate that they don't have an issue.
Might not help long term, but seems like it does for a few minutes at least.
It most definitely is! This is a topic my therapist and I discuss often :)