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How Writing Helped Pull Me Out of My Burnout

Phil Tietjen on August 21, 2019

Since there are varying degrees of burnout and how some people go through burnout, I'll start by warning you all that I cannot think about burnout ...
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Matthew

Just want to show my appreciation for how the Burnout titles suited the flow of your article perfectly. I am personally in the "Point of Impact" stage of my burnout... About to take a 2 week holiday abroad then it's time for "Takedown" haha

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Phil Tietjen

The burnout series will always come through for you, unless you want a new game :(

Glad you liked the read!

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Damir Franusic

Thank You for sharing your story, I'm always deeply moved when reading such honest and personal depictions of something that has become way too common in modem times.

Being in web development can be a little exhausting at times

This is a massive understatement :), and I utterly feel your pain. It is as palpable as it can be, and your choice of words is a remarkable representation of endless loop of vexation.

Here's a little poetic expression of my repressed wrath stoking the perennial ember of madness.

When programming slowly starts to posses your dreams, the moment of clairvoyance approaches rapidly. A single glimpse of not so distant dystopia brings you face to face with a screaming banshee, your future self. The fading ember of zeal which once fueled your existence is now departed. As you stand on the cusp of madness feeling shivers traversing down your spine, the elusive demon slowly ravages your mind until there is but a void. The foreboding daydream or premonition of the past, the lunacy has set in and shackled your intellect with perpetual doubt, your bespoke abyss. --vimmer9

I also wrote something similar, maybe that's why it's so easy to relate.

P.S.
Loving the illustrations 👍

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Phil Tietjen

Thanks! I'm glad you enjoyed the read :D

I also enjoyed your poetic expression you shared.

I only worked from home for around 2 months for my first job shortly after my daughter was born, and it was a lot of days spent in sweat pants tackling bad habits working late to make up for guilt. I'll have to give the article you shared a read! :D

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Damir Franusic

I forgot to add that, among others, DEV.to was one of the most notable factors that got me back on track and sparked a desire to explore my writing affinities.

I don't want to mention any names here but having a propper support, professional or otherwise, is more than paramount.

Big Thanks to DEV.to, my wife, and one special person who I connected with on this platform. I tend to think that everything happens for a reason, and sometimes the result is quite liberating and difficult to fathom.

All those bits and byes that constitute our exchange of messages can be both devastating and exhilarating. We should all take a step back before commenting, and think about the person on the receiving end, think about the potentially fragile state they might be in.

Thanks for reading 😄

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Damir Franusic • Edited

You story, for some unknown reason, inspired me to publish that poem with some adjustments. Brothers in burnout 😉

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Andrew Brooks 👨‍💻 • Edited

I love that the dev.to is generally a very positive community! Great insight on burnout. It's smart to refocus your energy to something like writing to reinspire ourselves. Also have to agree about Burnout being the best racing series.

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Phil Tietjen

dev.to has been so far the most positive community I've been a part of so far, it's brilliant!

I'm glad people out there remember Burnout as they should!

Glad you liked the read! :D

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Jean-Michel 🕵🏻‍♂️ Fayard • Edited

Depression(*) means loss of connexions, in your case with meaningful work and people. So it makes sense that writing and getting this kind reactions allowed you to get better.

I can't recommend enough Johan Ari on the subject

thelostconnections.com/mobile/

(*) For those wondering, burnout is just an euphemism for depression, easier to use in a professional context.

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Phil Tietjen

burnout is just an euphemism for depression

I see where you're coming from, although I have to disagree with that definition; atleast for my personal experience with burnout.

I don't believe what I experienced was as severe as something like depression, but I did feel burnt out growing my development skills to keep up with my expectations. That lead to me feeling frustrated and the cycle continued.

From the things I have read and experienced, I think burnout can lead to depression. However, I think depression is a much more complex issue to tackle.

Thank you for bringing up a resource that can help with something like depression, that book looks to be well regarded and I have not heard of it! :D

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Josh Maxwell

Thank you for sharing your experience. I feel like I struggle in much of the same way. I regularly go through cycles where I feel super guilty taking time to relax or play video game when I "should" be leveling up my real life skills.

I'm currently in the process of setting up a Gatsby blog for many of the same reasons you addressed above. I basically need to prove to myself that I do know things in my domain.

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Phil Tietjen • Edited

I feel super guilty taking time to relax or play video game when I "should" be leveling up

It's a pattern that's too familiar. Staying in that fine line between growing your skills and staying sane is just difficult. I've been thinking of using a schedule these days to stay on track.

Gatsby is perfect for that and the whole framework seems to have a lot of steam into it. My next few projects are Gatsby theme related and it's been cool.

Glad you liked the read and good luck with your blog, you'll nail it!

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zakwillis

Great story

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Phil Tietjen

Thanks! :D