These Days, I Feel Alone

These days, I feel like I’m walking alone.

I’m in my final year of B.Tech, and everywhere I look, people seem to have figured out their paths. Placements, projects, internships, communities — everyone is moving, running, achieving. And then there’s me. Sitting with my laptop, staring at lines of code that blur into nothing.

It’s not like I’ve done nothing. In fact, I’ve been doing tech things since my very first year — projects, coding competitions, internships, open-source, hackathons. From 1st year till now, I’ve kept showing up. I’ve worked, learned, built, tried. And still, somehow, I feel invisible. Like no matter how much I do, it’s never enough for anyone to notice.

It’s not just the errors on the screen that wear me down — it’s the silence around me. No teammates pinging me to collaborate. No friend saying, “Let’s build this together.” No late-night debugging calls. Just me, my screen, and a room that feels too quiet.

Sometimes I wonder if I’m invisible. Like if I stopped showing up, no one would notice. Not in class, not online, not even in the dev community I admire so much. It hurts to scroll past other people’s wins — their open-source contributions, their internship offers, their shiny projects — while I sit here, questioning my worth.

I go to sleep with thoughts like, “Maybe I’m not cut out for this. Maybe I don’t belong in tech. Maybe people just don’t like me.”
And honestly? Some nights, I believe it.