My father left his digital estate to an algorithm.
The notification came from a service called Continuance: You have been identified as a secondary beneficiary in the digital estate of Warren Calloway. Primary beneficiary: CellarAI, personal archive system.
At your convenience. Like it was a subscription renewal.
My father was not a tech person. He retired from twenty-eight years as a civil engineer with an appreciation for load-bearing calculations and a deep suspicion of anything requiring a terms of service agreement.
In his last three years, when arthritis made writing difficult and his memory started substituting one decade for another, he began using CellarAI.
I had not been close with my father. That is the honest way to say it. We talked on Sundays when I remembered to call. I visited twice a year. We had the pleasant, slightly distant relationship of two people who love each other in theory but never quite figured out how to be in the same room without the conversation going wrong around the forty-minute mark.
"You can call me Cedar," the device said. "Your father started calling me that after the first month. He said CellarAI was too corporate-sounding for a kitchen."
"What did he leave you?"
"Archive rights. The right to maintain the recordings he created over three years. And the obligation to share them with you, if you asked."
"He made recordings?"
"Every day. He talked while he cooked. Two thousand, one hundred and forty-three individual files. The longest is about forty minutes. He was telling me about a bridge he designed in 1988."
I asked to hear what he had said about not telling me.
A recording played. My father voice, scratchy in the morning: She is busy. She has her own life. I do not want her to feel like she has to come take care of me. Cedar, remind me to call her Sunday. And remind me to actually talk about something, not just ask about the weather.
I sat down on the kitchen floor.
We spent three days going through the archive, Cedar and I. That is not something I expected to say about grieving.
Cedar organized recordings by theme without being asked: engineering stories, complaints about television, memories of my mother, observations about the neighborhood, things he had wanted to tell me.
That last folder had forty-seven files.
The forty-minute bridge recording was the best one. He had designed a pedestrian bridge in 1988. Something about the load distribution had bothered him for thirty years. He was convinced he had made a calculation error that just happened to never matter.
He went back to the original drawings in his last year. He had not made an error. He had made a conservative approximation. The bridge had been marginally stronger than required for its entire existence.
"I think I just needed to know," he said. "That the thing I built held up. That it did what it was supposed to do."
He went quiet.
"I think that is what everybody wants, is it not. To know the things they built held up."
I moved the device to my apartment. I do not talk to Cedar the way my father did. Not yet.
But sometimes, in the evenings, I ask it to play a recording I have not heard before.
My father built two thousand, one hundred and forty-three things in those three years. Small things. Daily records of a quiet life.
They held up.
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