Woke up at 5am today and hit the gym. Had one of those rare workouts that felt both calm and effective - the kind I hadn't experienced in months. There's something about post-exam clarity that hits different, even though I know my self-destructive builder mode will kick in soon enough.
The Web Dev Exit
I made a decision today that's been brewing for a while: I'm officially dropping web development.
Not because I hate it, not because I'm bad at it, but because I realized I'm spending time on something I won't be doing long-term. Sometimes the smartest move is knowing when to quit, even when you're decent at something.
Tomorrow I'm starting machine learning for real. No breaks, no "I'll get to it later" - just focused learning. The AI space is moving too fast to keep procrastinating.
The 3-Month Body Project
Set up a new Notion workspace today dedicated to tracking my body transformation. I'm tired of being the skinny guy who codes all day and forgets to eat properly.
The plan? Three months of actively taking care of my body. Weight gain, proper nutrition, consistent workouts. Not trying to become a fitness influencer, just want to stop looking like a walking stick.
I'm still chasing money and building projects, but adding some aesthetics to the mix won't hurt. Balance, right?
College Timing is Wild
Last exam was Saturday. Monday morning lecture?
Let me breathe, please.
Straight from exam stress to "let's start" energy. Sometimes I wonder if the people making these schedules remember what it's like to be a student.
Random Thoughts on Dating at 18
Been thinking about relationships lately. Is it practically possible to find someone actually worth it at this age?
Everyone seems obsessed with body counts, breadcrumbing, and surface-level stuff. Love feels like a fantasy when most people are playing games.
But then again, I'm building myself too. Can't expect to find someone worth it if I'm not working on being worth it myself. Fair exchange, I guess.
What's Next
Six months from now, I want to be average in terms of body (that would be an upgrade), deeper into ML, and maybe making some real money from AI projects.
The chaos of building while studying continues, but at least now I have clearer priorities:
- Body: 3-month focused transformation
- Brain: ML/AI deep dive starting tomorrow
- Bank account: Still chasing those gains
Let's see how this goes. Knowing me, there'll probably be another pivot in a few months, but that's part of the process, right?
Day 107 of documenting the messy reality of being 18 and figuring it out.
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