I am currently an AI/ML Engineer at Sustainability Economics. I started as an AI/ML Intern on April 1st, 2025, and was converted to a full-time position in October. Although I have been full-time for three months now, there is no difference in how I am treated; since my first day, I have been treated as a full-time Engineer. I was never viewed as just an intern or a junior, and for that, I am thankful to my CEO, Kasu Venkata Reddy.
In this role, I have learned how to build LLM-based applications and Agentic AI to automate human tasks, reducing manual work by 50-60%. I have also learned the deployment side of the field, not just development. I know how to deploy on AWS and use components like DynamoDB, S3, and EC2. Every day, I learn something new that feels right and impactful. I have used many frameworks like LangChain, LangGraph, and PyTorch, and I am currently learning about the inference side and GPUs. This is my journey so far; there is much more to say, but I think this is enough for now.
My ambition is to be earning in crores within the next 3 to 4 years.
The Problem: I struggle with a habit of watching YouTube. After realizing how much time has passed, my study plans are ruined. This leads to overthinking, which makes me feel guilty. I blame myself, stop being productive, and inevitably end up back on YouTube. I feel exhausted from overthinking, and in that state of tiredness, I watch even more YouTube. I am stuck in a loop. I want to break free, but I am often stopped by the fear of judgment. This guilt makes me feel irritable, and I take my anger out on the people I love mostmy family and friends. I hurt them because I am frustrated with my own lack of progress. Today, I decided that no matter what, I have to start now. This is why I am writing about my struggle.
The Solution: Every day morning or evening, I will write. I now understand that overthinking is just a process that leads nowhere; I need to focus on production. Today, I am starting to create something because it will make my life better. I am beginning to "build in public," which will help me gain confidence and remove my fear of judgment. I will take it one step at a time. Something is always better than nothing.
My Promise: "I will show up daily, even if the output is bad."
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