I've always been interested in technology throughout my life; especially software development in my latter years. But it's been difficult to stay diligent in my studies lately. Life has a way of shaking things up, and I've been hit with a few curveballs in the past few months.
First and most relevantly, I found out that I'm having a son. Being unplanned, it's been a lot to process to say the least. I'm excited about becoming a parent, but I'm also feeling overwhelmed, nervous, anxious, fearful, and doubtful. I'm not sure how I'm going to balance it all.
Second, I've been struggling with mild depression. This is something that I've dealt with in the past, and it's been especially difficult to manage lately. I've been feeling tired, unmotivated, and isolated; all my fault, I can't help but believe. This all has made it difficult to stay connected with my friends and family in the ways I'd like, and it's also made it harder to find motivation to study. Self-inflicted guilt-trips get the job done for now.
Despite all of these challenges, I'm trying to stay positive. I know that I can do this, and I'm determined (most times) to succeed. I've recently started learning about components and props in React, and I'm finding it to be interesting/new enough to push forward. I'm excited to continue learning and to see what I can create.
I know that it's going to be tough, but I'm confident that I can overcome these challenges. I'm not going to let anything get in the way of my dream of becoming a software developer. It's me that's the force to be reckoned with. But I'm going to keep studying, keep learning, and keep moving forward.
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I am certain you will find a way to stay above water. I truly hope you make a great dad