Every engineer in the world should go to a tea gathering
There's something I want to say to every engineer in the world.
Just go to a tea gathering. Once.
I'm an engineer. In my spare time, I also practice chanoyu — the Japanese discipline built around the making and serving of a bowl of tea. The two had nothing to do with each other. They weren't supposed to. And then one day, watching the host prepare the tea, it hit me: this is a place where the things we only ever run inside our heads, or inside a computer, are being performed in front of you, physically, in the open.
A data structure that behaves consistently. A process that flows in a fixed order. A rule that breaks the moment you cross a boundary. The systems we assemble in our heads, run on our machines, and test for correctness — here they were, unfolding on the tatami of a tea room as real, physical motion, in a person's hands.
Normally, the only way we ever touch these systems is through a screen, from the far side of the text. But in the tea room, it's there as a real space you can walk into. You can stand, in the flesh, inside the very world you spend your days writing in code.
I want my fellow engineers to feel this. But I doubt any of this lands yet. Of course it doesn't. Until that moment mid-preparation when it caught me, it had never once occurred to me that tea and engineering shared any ground at all. So I won't explain any further. Instead, I'll tell you about one engineer who knows nothing about tea, and who gets taken to a gathering one day, almost by accident. He's seated knowing nothing, follows along knowing nothing, and then, near the very end — he notices.
If something in it snags on you as you read — that snag is the thing I wanted to hand you.
Chapter 1 — The room where the notifications never stop
The first thing he reached for when he woke was the phone on his pillow.
Everything that had piled up overnight sat waiting on the screen. Seventeen unread messages. Four pull requests waiting on review, two of them already flagged "urgent" the day before. A question from the overseas team. A spec change. A long comment someone had left on an issue someone else had opened. Thumb moving across the screen from inside the covers, he felt it press on him — the day hadn't even started, and he was already behind on something.
Three years of remote work. A room in his home had become his workplace, and the buffer zone once called a commute was gone. Sit at the desk and a meeting was already there; finish the meeting and a chat was waiting; clear the chat and the next meeting began. However much code he wanted to sit and write, something would blink and buzz at the edge of the screen every fifteen minutes, slicing his attention into smaller and smaller pieces. It wasn't that tasks never ended — they ended, and the next was stacked on the moment they did. Draw water from the well as often as you like; it keeps welling up from below.
At night, eyes closed in bed, the unresolved threads, the replies he'd never gotten around to, the list of things to do tomorrow — they scrolled on by themselves. He was in a quiet room, and only the inside of his head stayed loud.
The one who dragged him out of it, more or less by force, was a friend from his student days.
"There's a tea gathering. Want to come?"
His reflex, hearing it down the phone, was to say no. A tea gathering. Kneeling on tatami in some Japanese room, bound up in rules he didn't understand, made to drink something bitter — that, presumably. He wasn't interested, and he had no time. And for that matter, he had no idea what he'd even wear.
"I don't know anything about the dress code, or any of it."
"It's fine, just normal clothes. You don't need to know anything. You just show up and sit."
Something in you don't need to know anything loosened him, slightly. Lately everything around him had been things he had to know, had to learn, had to catch up on. If somewhere in the world there was still a place where you didn't need to know anything —
"Just for a bit, then."
"Yeah. Just for a bit."
And so, that Sunday morning, without much enthusiasm, he set out. His phone — he brought it, out of habit; that he was about to spend a few hours parted from it, he did not yet know.
Chapter 2 — Another space, beyond the paper door
The place was an old Japanese house in the middle of the city.
He passed through the gate and the noise of the street outside fell suddenly away. He made his way inward, and once up inside the building there was somewhere to leave his things. Setting his own bag down in a corner, his friend said, low:
"Leave your phone there too."
His hand stopped for a second.
A work message might come. An urgent review. A question from the overseas team. Something might happen while he was parted from it, and he alone would be left not knowing — that anxiety welled up in him, like a reflex. But his friend, as if it were nothing at all, laid his phone face down on top of his bag, offhand. He did the same. On top of his things, screen to the floor.
The moment he set it down, a strange sensation. His palm felt light.
From there, all he could do was follow the customs of the place. His friend slid open the paper door and went in first; he followed.
Inside was not what he'd expected.
It wasn't large. A room floored with tatami — the woven straw matting. But there was almost nothing in it. Nothing you could call decoration. On the wall, a single hanging scroll. Beneath it, a single flower. That was all. His own room — the several monitors, the stacked documents, the cabling, the charging cables, the sticky notes — set against that overcrowded space, this place held next to nothing at all. Bare was the word that came to mind.
"There."
His friend pointed to a single spot on the tatami. The place where he was to sit, apparently. He lowered himself where he'd been told.
"Ah — don't cross that line."
His friend checked him, quietly. He meant the border of the mat — a narrow band of cloth running along its edge, a shade different in color. You weren't to put yourself across it, it seemed. He didn't ask why. Asking would only drag things out, he felt, and the quiet around him made the question hard to raise. He just shifted his feet, keeping to his side of the line, and settled himself again.
You sit in the place that's been decided. There's a line you may not cross. The reason is unknown. Not knowing it, he followed.
And still — oddly, it wasn't unpleasant. If anything: no phone in his hand, nothing in front of him, and the scrolling inside his head, too, seemed to have eased its pace, just a little. Sitting, simply, in a quiet room. It had been a very long time, it seemed, since he'd done anything like that.
Chapter 3 — Something sweet, served first
Once everyone had settled, something was brought out.
It wasn't tea. It was a sweet.
A small confection was set down in front of him. That was how it went, apparently — before the tea, something sweet came first. Why the sweet should come before the tea, he didn't know, but he was already getting used to not knowing.
The other guests began, each of them, to take their sweets. He reached out too, copying as best he could. His friend beside him showed him with his eyes alone: take it like this. There was some sort of etiquette to it, he gathered, but the details were beyond him. In any case, he brought one to his mouth.
Sweet.
It was a clean, straight sweetness. Nothing like the energy drinks he threw back between stretches of work, that sugar that clung to the tongue. It didn't sit heavy. It left no aftertaste. It simply came apart, gracefully, in his mouth, and was gone.
Good, he thought, plainly.
He had no impression beyond that. What this confection was, what meaning it carried — the thought didn't even cross his mind. Just sweet, and good. That was enough. It was the first moment, at this gathering he'd been dragged to against his will, that he thought: this isn't bad.
Chapter 4 — Into the bare room, the tools are carried in
Until then there had been someone seeing to the guests, handling the sweets, but once everyone had finished eating, the room went still. In the quiet, a panel in one corner of the room slid open without a sound. The person who appeared was someone who had not shown himself even once before. Every movement he made was unlike anyone else's. This is the host — he knew it on instinct. That the center of the room had shifted, now, onto this person, came through even to him, who understood nothing.
The place where the host sat was at the back of the room, a corner set a little apart from the guests. The area in front of it had, this whole time, been left unnaturally empty. Even in a room as bare as this, that spot in particular looked deliberately kept clear.
The host withdrew, then came back. Something in his hands. He set it down in the empty space. Withdrew again, came back again. With another tool. Set that down too.
One. Then another.
He watched it, vaguely. What each tool was called, what each was for, he had no idea. Something for making tea — that was about as far as his understanding went. But as he watched, there was one thing he felt.
The order was fixed.
The host wasn't hesitating. Which to carry first, where to set it down, what to go back for next. There was not a trace of wavering in the movement. As if the place each thing went, and the order each was carried in, had been decided long beforehand, and the host was only tracing over it.
This is the established form, probably, he thought. Tea seemed to be full of these fixed procedures. The border he'd been told not to cross, the spot he'd been seated in — probably the same thing. It's decided, so you do it that way. There's surely a reason. He just doesn't know it yet.
Into the corner that had been bare, the tools gathered, little by little. A place where nothing had been was being quietly arranged into a place for making tea.
He watched it. Thinking only: the order is awfully fixed. Beyond that, he had noticed nothing yet.
Chapter 5 — The main guest opens the room
The host began to make the tea.
In the quiet, the sound of water coming to a boil; inside the bowl, the whisk moving with a brisk, dry rhythm. The bowl, once whisked, was carried first to the guest seated highest — at the head of the room.
From where he sat, that guest looked like the one who had it most "right." Posture, movements, something about them set apart from the other guests. The one who understood this place best, he found himself thinking.
The room had been quiet the whole time. Since the host came in, no one had said a word. Just after entering, and while eating the sweet, he'd been able to murmur a little with his friend beside him — it's beautiful, that much. But once the host began the preparation, even those small whispers stopped, and only the sound of the movements filled the room. This is what a tea gathering is, he'd started to think — something you sit through, quietly, to the end.
So when that main guest spoke, it startled him a little.
You're allowed to talk?
The guest was putting some question to the host. In a calm, but clear, voice. And the host answered. The host, who until now had said nothing, only moving his hands — asked, he returned words for the first time.
What they were talking about, he could barely follow. Too many unfamiliar words. Things that seemed to be the names of tools, place names and people's names he'd never heard. The greater part of the exchange flowed past, outside his understanding.
But there was one thing he felt. The host, being asked, did not look in the least put upon. If anything — it was as if he'd been waiting all along to be asked. As if he'd been watching for the question, and it had finally come. The man who'd been silently working his hands a moment ago began, as if it had all been a lie, to return words.
And there was one phrase he caught.
Ichigo ichie.
The words on that scroll, on the wall. The main guest, it seemed, was asking the host about them. Why, on this day, he had chosen to hang those words. What the guest himself had felt in them. The details escaped him. But that the guest conveyed something in his own words, and that the host, hearing it, broke into a face soft with something like joy — that much, he could see.
From there the exchange went on, in an air gentler than the quiet of before. The host, asked, spoke of something. Here and there, words he could understand slipped in. About today's guests. About this one day that would never gather again in quite the same way. He couldn't grasp all of the meaning. Still, there were several moments where he thought: ah — I see.
He'd taken it for a stock four-character phrase. Something he'd seen somewhere, a commonplace. And now, here, inside this room, it was rising up, carrying some particular meaning.
He listened from his seat in the middle of the room. It wasn't that he did anything himself. Only that the main guest there asked, and the host answered — and from that alone, the letters on the wall that had been mere decoration a moment ago were turning, before his strange and wondering eyes, into something that meant something.
Chapter 6 — A bowl with the noise gone
Before long, a bowl was carried to him as well.
The serving that had begun at the head of the room had come down, in order, until it reached him in the middle. How to hold it — his friend beside him showed him in a small gesture. He took it in both hands and turned it a little, as he'd been told. He didn't know what it meant. And yet the not-knowing of the gesture, oddly, settled his hands.
He brought it to his lips.
It was nothing like the green tea he usually drank. Even the color was different. At the bottom of the bowl sat a green far more vivid, far deeper.
Bitter. But not only bitter. From beneath the bitterness, something came chasing after — something round, mellow. Umami, perhaps you'd call it. The depth of it spreading over his tongue seemed, somewhere, to connect with the sweetness of the confection from before. They should have been opposite tastes, and yet the line between them hadn't been cut. The lingering sweetness and the savor of the tea became, in his mouth, one thing. Too good to swallow in a single go, he held the rest, slowly, in his mouth.
And then he noticed.
It was quiet.
Not that the room was quiet. The room was, too — but that wasn't it. Inside his head was quiet.
Normally, even as he brought something to his mouth, some thread was running in a corner of his mind. What had become of that review. What time the next meeting was. The cause of that bug. How many replies were piling up, owed and unsent. Whatever he did, something was always running behind it, blinking, tugging at his attention.
And now, it was gone.
The weight of the bowl, the warmth against his palms, and the bitterness and the savor left in his mouth. Only that was inside him. Nothing else. The noise in his head that had welled up endlessly, without a break, one thing after another — now, strangely, it was nowhere.
How long he stayed like that, he didn't know. Perhaps it was only a brief moment. But it felt to him as though he had let out a breath, long and deep.
He had only drunk tea. That was all it was. And yet he had become — to his own bewilderment — quiet.
Chapter 7 — In reverse — this space is like code
The guests, one round of them, had finished their tea. As if that were the cue, the host began to clear the tools away.
He watched it, vaguely, in the full, sated quiet that follows tea. The host's hands took down one tool, then another. The same unhesitating motion as when they'd come in.
And then his eye caught on something.
The tool that had been carried in last. That was the first to be taken away.
Hm.
He rewound his memory. The order, just now, when the host had carried the tools in. What came first, what was set down last. He didn't remember exactly. He didn't — but even so, the shape of what was happening in front of him now came clear.
The thing set down last is taken away first. In reverse order, he's clearing them.
That was the moment. Something in his head fell into place with an audible click.
It's reverse order. It's a stack.
Last thing pushed, first thing popped. Last in, first out. The very data structure he handled almost every day. Call a function, and they pile up in the order called; on the way back, they fold away in reverse. In the order they were stacked, you can't clear them. You have to take them from the last one down. Otherwise you can't reach what's beneath.
Inside the tea room, that was happening.
And once the one point caught fire, it spread.
That unhesitating carry-in. The order had been fixed — not because it was form. Because clearing them in reverse had been decided from the start. The thing used last, on top. The thing used first, beneath it. The order of putting away had decided the order of carrying in. The exit had been worked backward, and the entrance built from it.
The memories went back, one pulling up the next.
The spot he'd been seated in. Each guest had sat in their own fixed place. The host's lines of movement. Where each tool was set. The path the bowl traveled as it was carried. That had not been mere custom. Who is where, what passes through where — all of it laid out so that nothing collided, so everything flowed without stagnation. If the places to sit weren't fixed, this flow would not hold.
And the line.
That narrow band he'd been told not to cross. The boundary he'd avoided without knowing why. That too — had been a divider. Pass through here, don't cross there. Step across that boundary just once and the host's path is thrown off, the tools' route is blocked, and this delicate flow breaks, instantly. There was not one rule in the place without meaning. Every movement had been assembled for the one thing: the unbroken execution of a single operation.
He looked around the room again.
The bare room, with nothing in it. The first time he'd seen it, he'd thought it merely plain, a simple space. But no. There was not one wasteful thing here. The excess had been stripped away, and only what was needed remained — in the needed order, in the needed place. Where people sat, the routes the tools moved along, the places you could step and the places you couldn't. All of it designed under a single consistency.
Like beautifully written code, he thought.
No wasted process, no hesitation in the naming, every part of it reading true. Not one line without meaning. Code you can read and feel, straight off, the clarity of the mind that wrote it — you meet code like that, sometimes. This room was like that.
And he realized: not one of these movements had been decided by some single person on a whim.
Over generations, over centuries. Passed through the hands of countless people, the waste pared away, little by little. Toward a more rational motion, a more unstagnant flow, a more beautiful form — worked and reworked, again and again. What stood before him now was what remained at the end of it. After an enormous refactoring, honed to a form with nothing left to cut, where function and style had become one. So this was what the established form was.
He looked around the room once more. The space he'd thought merely plain a moment ago looked, now, entirely different.
The host's hands take down the last tool. Into that bare emptiness from before it was carried in. The room returned, once more, to a state of nothing.
For a while, he couldn't move.
Chapter 8 — Could I sit for one more?
The gathering was over.
The guests rose, one after another, and left the room. He, too, started to get up, following his friend. His legs had gone numb from sitting so long. But the numbness barely registered — his head was still warm with what he'd found a moment ago.
Outside, in a kind of waiting area, several guests sat waiting for the next sitting. The same gathering, it seemed, was repeated several times over, the guests swapped out each round. Only so many could fit at once, so it was held in turns, one sitting after another.
Hearing that, he found himself saying to his friend:
"Could I go in again?"
It surprised even him. He'd been dragged here against his will. Before coming, he'd been sure he'd want to leave early. And now here he was, saying — of his own accord — that he wanted to go back into that room.
"That's a first, for you." His friend laughed a little. "Sure. I'll go ask if there's a seat in the next one."
While they waited, he thought it over. What he'd seen just now — had he really gotten it right? That reverse order, was it really a stack? The arrangement of the seats, the line, his hunch that all of it had been built under a single consistency? He wanted to check, once more. This time, going in already understanding, he was sure he'd see far more.
There was a seat. He went into the room a second time.
Inside, nothing had changed from before. The same bare room. The same scroll, in the same place. The same flower beneath it. The host, too, was the same person.
Only the guests had been swapped out.
The "proper" guest who'd sat at the head of the room in the last sitting — the one who'd asked the host about the day's choices, and loosened the room open — was no longer there. In the head seat this time sat a different guest. He didn't pay it any particular mind.
The room the same. The host the same. The tools the same. Then the same thing as before should happen, once more.
That was what he thought.
Chapter 9 — The same room, a wholly different quiet
Everything proceeded just as before.
The sweet came out. The same sweet, as before. This time he took it with a slightly more practiced hand, and brought it to his mouth. Sweet. It was the same sweetness as before.
The room stilled, the panel slid open, the host appeared. The same host. The tools were carried in the same way. One, then another. In the fixed order. This time he tried to watch the order. These would be taken down later in reverse. A stack. That structure he'd caught onto before — he wanted to see it again, to confirm it.
The host made the tea. The same sound. The same movements. The tea was carried, in order, from the head of the room down.
Up to there, all of it was the same as before.
He was waiting. For the same moment to come. For the main guest to open his mouth toward the host and ask — about the scroll, about the tools, about this day. That moment when the room softened, and the letters on the wall rose up carrying meaning.
But.
That moment did not come.
The main guest asked nothing. Received the tea, drank in silence, set the bowl down. That was all. No question put to the host, no eye turned to the scroll. Only the thing set before them, received.
The other guests, the same. No one opened their mouth.
The room was quiet. It had been quiet before, too. But this quiet was not the quiet of before. The earlier quiet had been full of something. In the motion of the host's hands, in the tools being carried in, there had been a kind of tautness — that something was about to happen.
The quiet in this room now was not that. It was only the quiet of nothing happening.
The tea was made, served, drunk. Not one step out of order. The host's movements, not a hair changed from before, beautiful. The tools, the same. The scroll, the same Ichigo ichie, hung in the same place.
And yet nothing rose up.
The letters on the scroll stayed mere letters. The same four characters on the wall as when he'd first seen them. What had looked, in the last sitting, so charged with meaning, had gone back, now, to being mere decoration.
The host looked to be waiting. The same as before. Waiting to be asked. But the question did not come. The host's hands went on moving, without a snag. Holding the same thing, in the same measure. Only — there was no one to hold it out to.
The tea came round to him as well. He drank. The same bitterness and savor. But it didn't sink in as deep as before.
In time, one round of guests had finished drinking. The host began to clear the tools. From the last carried in, in reverse order. A stack. The structure he'd wanted to confirm was, indeed, there. Not a hair different from before, just the same.
The sitting ended, without a snag.
Nothing had been wrong. Nothing had been missing. Host, tools, movements — all of it perfectly in place.
And yet, in him, the full quiet of before did not remain.
Something was, decisively, different.
In the same room, the same host had done the same thing. And he could not catch hold of what the difference was.
Chapter 10 — Ask nothing, and nothing comes back
Even after leaving the room, he couldn't let go of the wrongness of it.
What had been different? He thought, and no answer came at once. The host the same. The tools the same. The preparation, the movements, the scroll, the sweet — all the same. Between the first sitting and the second, almost nothing had changed.
Almost.
There was one thing that had changed.
The guests. The one at the head — that guest.
The "proper" guest who'd sat highest in the first sitting. Who'd asked the host, drawn out the meaning of the scroll, loosened the room open. In the second sitting, that person hadn't been there. The different guest who sat in their place had asked nothing.
The scattered pieces in him began to join into one.
So that was it. That was what that person had been doing.
In the first sitting, that guest had been putting questions to the host. Why had he hung this scroll today? What care had gone into this tool? Asked, the host had answered, and in the answer the letters on the scroll took on meaning, the tools took on a story, and the room softened.
That guest had been drawing it out.
The host, in the second sitting, had held the same things. The same care, the same stories, the same feeling toward those words, Ichigo ichie — all of it had surely been there inside him, unchanged. Held, not a hair different from the first.
Only, there was no one to draw it out.
The host did not speak of his own accord. In the first sitting, too, it had been so. Asked, he answered for the first time. Unless asked, however rich the thing he held, the host would not hold it out.
In that moment, in his head, it fell into place again, with a click.
Request and response.
The host was something that returned a response. Call out to it, and only then does an answer come back. Don't call, and it will never speak to you first. The same thing he did, every day, to the servers on the far side of the screen. Throw a request, receive a response. No request, no response.
And the host had been waiting. In the first sitting and the second alike. Waiting to be asked. Never moving of his own accord. Only waiting for the request to come. Hit it, and it answers. Leave it alone, and it stays silent, returns nothing.
In the first sitting, there had been someone to hit it. In the second, there had not.
That was the whole of the difference. By that alone, the same server had become something wholly different. The same host, holding the same response, and in one case it was drawn out to fill the room, and in the other it was never once called, and ended.
And then he noticed one more thing.
That hitting it would not draw the same response from just anyone.
The main guest in the second sitting had been there too. Had been sitting there. But that person did not ask. Could not, perhaps. What to ask — where to hit, what would come back — perhaps they did not know.
To ask is a different thing from merely being there. To ask rightly, you have to know. Where, on this scroll, to rest your eye. Of this tool, what to inquire. Where, in the room, the response lies sleeping. Without knowing that, even seated at the head, you draw out nothing.
No question, no answer comes back. And the one to ask — was not just anyone.
He stopped where he stood.
He was remembering those words on the scroll. Ichigo ichie. The meaning that guest had drawn out in the first sitting, that the host had spoken. Never to gather again in the same way. The same faces, the same arrangement, would never come round again. And so, this once — that was the sort of meaning the words had held, he was fairly sure.
In the second sitting, too, that scroll had hung. The same words, in the same place.
The second sitting, too, had been a once that would never come again. On that day, with those faces, that sitting could exist only once in all the world. The Ichigo ichie scroll had hung over the second sitting as well, beyond any doubt.
But no one asked it.
And so its once-only meaning rose up in no one, and vanished. The very words that speak of the unrepeatable — because no one asked them — let their one and only once pass by, received by no one. The scroll, to the very end, stayed mere letters.
For a while, before that irony, he stood still.
Final chapter — The first line
Out of the gathering, he walked through the streets.
It should have been the same road as on the way there. The same street, the same afternoon light. But the inside of his head was not the same as when he'd come.
In his pocket, his phone was buzzing. He'd taken it back on the way out and returned it to his hand. Looking, he found the notifications had piled up, several of them, over the few hours. Unread messages. A nudge on a review. A meeting on the calendar. Before today, his hand would have gone to each one by reflex.
But now there was a little distance.
The notifications were certainly there. Not one had vanished. The amount of work waiting for him hadn't changed either. Only that sense — of them flowing through his head, endlessly, one after another, without a break — had thinned. The memory of the quiet that had come over him in that tea room, when he drank the bowl of tea, still seemed to be lingering somewhere.
As he walked, he thought about the two sittings.
The same room. The same host, holding the same things, in the same measure. And yet one sitting had filled rich and full, and the other had passed with nothing rising up at all. What differed was whether there was someone to ask, or not. That was all.
The clearing in reverse order, and the exchange of question and answer. What he'd noticed in the tea room, he'd taken for two separate things. But walking now, looking back, they were not separate at all.
The tools folding away in reverse order. And nothing coming back unless you asked. Both were two faces of one and the same thing. That the room — where people sat, the order the tools were carried in, the way question and answer were exchanged — all of it had been assembled under a single consistency. A system. The two structures he'd found were the same single design, looked into from different angles.
And he thought: if he ever went to a tea gathering again. This time, he wanted to watch, from closer up, what that guest at the head had been doing. What that person saw, what they caught onto, where they hit. That drive that draws, from the same system, a wholly different richness.
If, someday, he could come round to that side.
And thinking that far, he stopped, suddenly, in his tracks.
And what about me?
If he were to sit in that head seat, and ask the host about that scroll. About those words, Ichigo ichie. What would he ask? Why, on this day, had you chosen those words — that, perhaps. But to ask it, first there had to be something he himself had felt in the words. A question doesn't come unless there's something stirring inside you to give rise to it.
He thought back over the day.
Dragged here against his will. Seated knowing nothing, following along knowing nothing. He'd let go of his phone, eaten a sweet, drunk a bitter, savory bowl of tea. And then — he'd noticed that each movement in that bare room had been like beautiful code, honed over a long, long time. He, who had known nothing, had been sitting inside it.
It had been a day he'd stepped, in the flesh, into a world he'd never touched.
What was normally only inside the computer, only on the far side of the text — the consistently behaving structures, the processes that fold away in fixed order, the exchange of question and answer — today, it had been moving in front of him, as real motion, in a person's hands and form. What he assembled in his head and ran on his machine had been unfolding, on the tatami, as real action. Into that world, he had stepped, for the first time.
Ah, he thought.
What Ichigo ichie was — at least, what the tea room was, to him, today —
it might have been Hello, world.
That one line you type, for the first time, toward a new world. Hello, world. Good to meet you. Let's get on. To something he'd never, from his own side, been able to touch — at last, he'd called out. That first single voice.
Only — he thought — that one line, which looks the same however many times you type it, is really not. The call to the world is always "first time." Even if you step once more into the same world, beyond the same sliding panel, the self that steps in then is not the self of today. And so, any number of times, it can become "the first."
Ichigo ichie.
The words on that scroll hung, now, over his own single day. Not because it would never come again. But because — with the same person, in the same place, however many times you meet — that once is always a first once. That, perhaps, was the meaning. Though no one had asked him, it rose up, of its own accord, carrying meaning.
He began, again, to walk.
The phone in his pocket still buzzed now and then. But his feet were no longer hurrying toward it. When would the next time be — the next time the sliding panel of that world opened. When it did — this time, he would ask, of his own accord.
What he would ask, he did not yet know. But something he wanted to ask had begun to take shape inside him. That premonition alone, he held, surely, in his hand.
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