The Failed Rest Day
Today was supposed to be simple: take a break while my laptop sits in Apple's repair purgatory for another day, help some people, catch up on sleep, maybe find some mental peace.
The universe had other plans.
Helping Others vs. Helping Yourself
Spent time with some juniors today, walking them through career decisions and next steps. There's something satisfying about sharing whatever hard-won knowledge you've accidentally accumulated.
But here's what nobody talks about: sometimes helping others is easier than helping yourself. You can see their problems clearly, offer logical solutions, map out reasonable paths forward.
Your own mental noise? That's a different story entirely.
The Rest That Doesn't Rest
Took a 3-hour nap. Went to bed early. Checked all the self-care boxes.
Still felt that weird restlessness creeping in. Thoughts about a friend that surface every couple of days, conversations I probably need to have but keep avoiding.
Maybe some of us just aren't built for traditional "rest." Maybe our brains are hardwired to keep processing, keep churning, even when our bodies are still.
Social Battery: Permanently Draining
Here's an uncomfortable truth I'm finally admitting: casual human interactions drain me more than they energize me.
I know this goes against every piece of networking advice ever written, but forced social energy feels like performance art. Exhausting performance art.
Maybe the best social interaction is... none. Maybe the best therapy is just getting back to work.
Building While Broken (Literally)
Still promoting Mutiny while laptop-less. My marketing strategy has devolved to offering virtual pats to anyone who registers.
https://mutiny-land.vercel.app/
Is this professional? Probably not. Does it feel authentic? Absolutely.
Sometimes honesty beats strategy.
Tomorrow's Reset
Sleep schedule: Fixed ✅
Gym consistency: Starting tomorrow ✅
Mental peace: Still loading... ⏳
Maybe consistency in small things eventually adds up to consistency in bigger things. Maybe fixing the human infrastructure is more important than fixing the code.
Or maybe I'm overthinking it and just need to lift some weights.
The Real Learning
Some days you can check every self-care box and still feel off. That's not failure – that's just being human.
Rest isn't always peaceful. Growth isn't always comfortable. And sometimes the best thing you can do is acknowledge the weirdness instead of pretending it doesn't exist.
Tomorrow: gym, work, fewer thoughts about things I can't control.
Let's see how it goes.
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