I Thought I Was Slacking Off

I thought I was slacking off, I felt like I wasn't making any significant progress, I felt lost and to be honest most times I thought to myself "What's the point of even trying?", I was drowning myself In self-doubt almost everyday-all because I couldn't get myself to finish a course on HTML, CSS, and JavaScript.
There was no one to hold me accountable ( I tried getting an accountability partner, but that didn't go as planned ).
I eventually mustered up the motivation to continue where I had left off in the course and finally finished it.

PS: I've always wanted to learn how to code, but when I eventually started, I felt like giving up somewhere along the line.

One particular day, I was in the bathroom and then it finally dawned on me that I hadn't actually been wasting time like I thought. During those Intervals, I had taught a few of my classmates how to build a static page with HTML and CSS-without even realizing it.
That moment In the bathroom made me realize that I had been hard on myself all this while for no real reason, I simply had a unique learning style that I hadn't noticed earlier.

Right now, I've learned to fully embrace and utilize my learning style to its fullest. I've built a few personal projects, and right now I'm taking a course on JavaScript to better understand the fundamentals and how to apply them.

Back then I was looking for someone to say to me "Get off your butt and work". Now, I don't have to wait for that anymore because I've discovered a learning style I can truly call my own.