The past seven to eight months have been crazyyy.
I came into college, finished my first semester strong with a 9 CGPA, a lot of new friends, and everything felt sorted.
Then the second sem hit.
Lost a lot of those friendships.
Lost my academic pace.
And for a while, I felt like I was just drifting.
But somewhere in that mess, my ideas started changing.
I started exploring instead of just following the routine.
Got into web development.
Joined my college’s tech + consulting societies.
Tried consulting for the first time—and actually worked on a real project.
Then came my first hackathon.
Met some amazing people, and for the first time, I felt like I was around people who were actually building things.
That changed something.
Around the same time, I had a realization:
With AI in my back pocket, the skill gap doesn’t feel that scary anymore.
It’s not about knowing everything—
It’s about figuring things out fast and actually building.
Since then, I’ve just been experimenting.
Trying tools. Breaking things. Making random stuff.
But the bigger shift wasn’t technical.
It was personal.
I started noticing patterns in myself,
how I form friendships, how I lose them, how I react when things get uncomfortable.
I realized I have a habit of stepping back the moment things get hard.
Not just with people but in academics, consistency… everything.
And I’m still working on that.
This year also started with me wasting 2 months on toxic people and my lack of motivation to actually study and take classes.
That phase taught me something I probably needed:
If I spend the next 4 years just doing what college tells me to do,
I’ll most likely end up average… or worse, completely lost, doing something I hate.
That thought genuinely scared me.
Getting involved in college activities and fest organizing gave me another reality check.
I saw how politics, favoritism, and power misuse actually work—
not just things you hear about, but things you experience.
And it made me realize:
Favoritism isn’t rare. It’s human.
And if it exists in something as small as college organizations,
I can only imagine how much it scales in the real world.
On a lighter note,
I used to make birthday videos for friends and family.
Now I make birthday websites instead.
Built 5 of them in the last 3 months 😭
since making a website feels easier than making videos.
I don’t have everything figured out yet.
Not even close.
But I know I don’t want to just go through college.
I want to build something out of it.
P.S. If you’re building something cool or just figuring things out like me, I would love to connect.

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