After years of procrastinating finally found the courage to write a blog post and hopefully after this there will be more. Hi fellow developers Navid here from the Netherlands, 34 years old. I started writing this blog item just because it was time to start (after all these years it was on item on my todolist) and because I am very curious if there are people out there with the same feelings as me. I started out of curiosity my journey in webdevelopment in the early 90's just when HTML 3 was introduced. I started with Yahoo pagebuilder, then frontpage from Microsoft, and after that I dicovered Dreamweaver. At that time I had so much fun building websites with Dreamweaver and writing HTML was just something like "how can I learn all those tags out of my head". Once I connected with a guy from internet, we became friends and I invited him to my house, he sat there and writing HTML in notepad totally out of his head. I never forget that moment I had something like "wowww, he can do this, I want that to". After that day I visited a dutch website specific about HTML and start learning it. Before I knew it, few weeks later I started writing HTML and I was soooo insanly happy I thought I was the best, that feeling when you learn new things it was just unforgettable and priceless. Weeks went by and I became better and better and start writing my first website in HTML in notepad.
I started going to a graphic school here in The Netherlands and after that to a more technical school, where I learned programming. Years went by and the internet became more mature and more tools and programming languages became available. At this time everything was fine and I felt good and still curious and eager to learn new things. After my graduation I found a job as front-end developer at a digital agency, well dream came true, found a job about a hoby which I love. Then it started I tought I was there and knew everything I became arrogant and stopped learning. The technology became more and more mature and was left behind. It went so fast and there were so much new things out there that I wanted to learned them all (Angular, Backbone js, Laravel) it became to much and I got stressed out, call it a burn out or what so ever. After 10 years I just was slacking around and didn't actually knew what I wanted to learn, did I still want to be in this industry? I worked all these years as front-end developer to pay the bills but that was it. All the previous jobs were more the same and at some jobs I didn't even made it and had to go out after a year, just because I wasn't competent enough. This experience became a reality for me, I was finished. I was not good enough anymore and applying for new jobs didn't go well. I got rejection after rejection and had to see my old class mates making promotions at their job. I became more and more depressed and started procrastinating even more. For not feeling guilty I started to subscribe for different learning platforms but I only paid and didn't do much, I felt it didn't make sense anymore and I am far behind everyone else.
I am really curious what you guys thing about this item and if you have kind same problems and challenges like me. Really looking forward to hear from you.