I know, I know. I am WAY behind where I need to be. My mom passed away last year and left me with the money that enabled me to take this course and I am fucking it up. My dad's lung cancer came back, which is what took my mom, and it paralyzed me. I don't know how else to put it. It was so awful seeing the woman that had always been the toughest asshole in my life get slowly erased, each day becoming less and less of the person I loved. The laws in this country are ridiculous, and Illinois is not yet a state that allows you to die with dignity. It was truly undignified.
HOWEVER...
I need to snap out of it. If my mom were here, she would be giving me that look and using my full name - SamanTHA. The emphasis at the end for a verbal kick in the ass, I suppose. If I can get my shit together, I can do this FOR my dad. Make him proud. So, here we are, back again, back to the beginning. I am taking my time, making my flash cards, coding every day (trying to at the very least), making use of the boundless resources that I have available. I know that I can do this. It's time for me to put up or shut up..and I am the loudest person I know.
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