Extreme Confident-Less Phase

I am experiencing an extreme confident-less phase in my career. I wonder if this happens to people in general or if it is me. I keep forgetting things I knew or learned and used previously. I cannot decide which way I should go to improve my technical skill set. All these things cumulatively contributing to my consistent low performance at work. Someday this feeling get a bit easier to handle, I feel like I can overcome it slowly. But most of the days I dread over coming to work and submitting any work or answering any query of colleagues. I constantly keep wondering if I was wrong.

Any thought on this?

Comments

[Suzanne Aitchison]

Sorry to hear you're having this difficult time. Is there anyone you can speak to at your work? Sometimes just being able to be open about it can help I think, and you might be surprised by their perspective on your contributions!

Maybe seeking out a mentor would be a good idea too? Someone to bounce ideas off and talk through scenarios you've come across at work?

Other than that sometimes I find "taking it back to basics" in my free time can be a great way to reconnect with why I love what I do and build confidence - like doing some basic fun challenges like the ones shared here on Dev, or playing about with CSS for no reason other than to make something for fun!

I hope things turn a corner for you soon ♥️

[self_discovery]

I keep considering speaking to someone and then not doing it because I don't want it to reach anyone at management, I would like to quietly resolve it.

I really think it is a good idea if I could get others perspective on my contribution, but my lack of confidence and fear of becoming an office-talk keeping me shut.

I have started doing "taking it back to basics" things. It is helping a bit by bit. But constant feeling of guiltiness that I should already have clear concept on these things, and unconsciously comparing myself to close colleagues of same age, keeps me wondering if whatever I'm doing will ever be enough.