So yeah, I vanished for 2 months. After working for like 3 months. Not my best moment.
But here's the thing - I'm 19, and I'm done pretending I have it all figured out. This post is Day 1 of what I'm calling "v1" - a 3 year run where I actually stick to things instead of my usual pattern of work hard, burn out, disappear, repeat.
What's Different This Time?
Real Experience: Those 3 months before my break? I actually learned stuff. Network connections, actual skills, not just tutorial hell. I know what works now.
Workout Consistency: Started hitting the gym regularly and holy shit, it changes everything. Your brain works better when your body isn't falling apart. Who knew?
Stable Relationship: Found someone who gets it. She doesn't mind when I'm working. That's rare. That matters.
Self Awareness: The self-doubt and self-loathing? Still here. I'm not going to pretend they disappeared because I started doing push-ups. But I'm working anyway.
The Plan (If You Can Call It That)
Work + workout. That's it. No complicated productivity systems, no notion templates with 47 databases, no morning routines that require waking up at 4am.
Just showing up. Every day. For 3 years.
The break comes after 3 years, not after 3 months like last time.
Why Am I Posting This?
Accountability, mostly. Also because I'm tired of seeing everyone's highlight reels. Someone's gotta keep it real about the fact that this is hard and we're all kind of making it up as we go.
Tomorrow is when v1 actually starts. This is just the announcement that I'm done being inconsistent.
Let's see if 18-year-old me can actually pull off something long-term for once.
This is Day 1 of a 3 year journey. Follow along if you want to see someone either succeed or fail spectacularly - either way it'll be real.
Top comments (1)
The thing i am experiencing right now is:
go with the flow!