Two days left.
That's all that stands between me and getting back to a routine that actually makes sense. College prep has been this weird exercise in forced patience - necessary, sure, but about as engaging as watching code compile on a 486.
The Limbo Problem
There's something uniquely frustrating about transition periods. You're not where you were, but you're not where you're going either. You're stuck in this middle space where productivity feels artificial and everything important feels just out of reach.
I've been running on autopilot for days now. Going through the motions of prep work while my brain keeps reaching for the stuff that actually matters - the workouts that push limits, the coding challenges that make you think differently, the routine that keeps you sharp.
Breaking the Cycle
Tomorrow's mission: remind myself what momentum feels like.
First, the gym. Not because some productivity guru said exercise is good for you, but because my body is tired of being passenger. Then straight into leetcode - not to "maximize efficiency" but because my brain is hungry for problems worth solving.
The Waiting Game
The ironic thing about these in-between periods is how they make you appreciate the beautiful chaos of real productivity. When you're forced to slow down, you realize how much you value the controlled chaos of actually building something.
College can't come fast enough. Not because I think it's going to solve everything, but because it represents getting back to forward motion instead of this weird sideways shuffle through preparation tasks.
48 hours until I can stop preparing to be productive and just... be productive.
The countdown is real now.
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