Part 2 (continuation...)
As you can see, I have written "Life in Depression", not "with depression", I just noticed the mistake and wanted to change it, but didn't. Because I can't help but feel it's a divine typo, like it fits perfectly into the narrative because there is no life with depression, it's either life or it's depression entirely, life and depression can't co-exist, it's one or another.
Now, the thing that has been bothering me for a while is that I have been around a few quotes lately on social media that "depression is real, but not everybody sad has depression." This was a very triggering thought for me since I have battled with validation for a long time. I lost the ability to differentiate between right and wrong midway during my time with it and between what was real and what was not real (dissociation & disconnection)...
So does that mean that everybody who has depression has to think before labeling it? well, no, in my opinion, because mostly things are what you think they are, if you feel something's wrong, there is something wrong. Like it happened with me when I was suffering with it, I just couldn't pinpoint what was wrong with me, and I didn't know what was happening. where was the world going? how was everyone happy? how could a person smile if they knew what I knew? there were some things which were hard for me to bear, and that was the reason for a shredded reality that gets created apart from the "reality" reality, you know what I mean.
Depression is so badly disorienting that it might just keep you in a loop of self-blame and never let you escape, and that's why you had to label it to get better(well, that's just my opinion). For years, I craved this one thing only, that is, wanting a label and validation that there was something truly wrong, but I couldn't since I didn't know what was wrong with me. But yes, you need to get it checked and label it correctly, for what is it that you are going through? that's a given.
to be continued...
Top comments (6)
I see it’s been a while since this was posted, but I just want to ask—have any of you found something small that helped get through the tough days? For me, it wasn’t big life changes but tiny things, like taking a walk without my phone or finally doing the dishes after a week. Curious what’s worked (or totally didn’t work) for others going through similar stuff.
What has worked is stepping out of that one thing that has been bothering you non-stop, and if you are going through existential crises, family problems, things like these, then turn it off, turn it off, be selfish, love yourself (I know it's easier said than done, but)
Changing the whole code and that one malfunctioned thought inside your head, which you keep on repeating, turn it off, liberate and yes, you are going in the right direction. Nature is therapy, treat yourself, hug yourself, love yourself(sounds cringe, but it works)
I’ve been there too, and something that’s oddly helped me stay grounded is using CBD Isolate during rough patches. It doesn’t get you high, but it helped me calm down enough to make it through the day when my brain wouldn’t stop spinning. Everyone's different, but I figured even small things that make life less heavy can be worth trying.
I agree, but I think medication is just numbing you and your experience, and it causes more harm than good. I think changing the whole lifestyle should work. Change the people around you, the environment, the career (if you are stuck), and just make your mind happy, no matter what. I think self-love is what we depressed people are lacking; we are not selfish, and I think that's what is ruining us.
I started tracking my days with a super simple journal—just writing how I feel, no pressure. It helped me notice patterns and slowly made things feel a bit less overwhelming.
I agree, Journaling is seriously really good, it's a thought dumpster, it's self-reflection, self-introspection, it's everything, you suggested just the right approach to deal with such a heavy thing.