Electronics lab exam at 4 P.M. OCaml exam tomorrow. A birthday party tonight. And somehow my brain decided this was the perfect time to wonder about dating someone who writes songs.
Welcome to Day 96 of building in public, where time management is a myth and priorities are just suggestions.
The Electronics Exam Plot Twist
As a computer science major, taking electronics feels like being in the wrong movie. Like, I signed up for algorithms and data structures, not circuit analysis and Ohm's law. But here we are.
I walked into that lab exam this morning after exactly one hour of cramming (shoutout to yesterday's post-deadline crash for stealing my study time). The questions looked familiar enough that I thought "okay, maybe I've got this."
30 minutes later, I was done. First person to submit.
Now, finishing an exam first can mean two things:
- You're absolutely crushing it
- You've spectacularly misunderstood everything
The silence in the room when I walked up to submit was... telling. That kind of silence where everyone looks at you like you either discovered some secret shortcut or completely gave up. There's no middle ground.
I'm leaning toward option 2, but we'll see.
Tomorrow's OCaml Adventure
And now I get to spend tonight at a friend's birthday party, followed by cramming for an OCaml exam. For those blissfully unaware, OCaml is a functional programming language that makes your brain hurt in new and creative ways.
I don't know a thing about it. Not one thing.
Functional programming is like learning to think backwards. Everything I know about coding is imperative - do this, then do that, store this value here, change it there. OCaml is like "what if we just... didn't change anything ever? What if everything was immutable and recursive?"
My brain: "Error 404: Logic not found."
The Dating Dilemma (Or: Why My Timing Is Terrible)
And in the middle of all this academic chaos, my brain decided to throw me a curveball. There's this girl who apparently writes songs, and for some reason, that single piece of information has lodged itself in my head like a splinter.
Not because she's conventionally stunning or anything obvious like that. But there's something about creative people that just... hits different? Like, she writes songs. She takes thoughts and feelings and turns them into something that didn't exist before. That's kind of incredible.
But here's the thing - my timing is consistently terrible. I don't have time for dating. Between building projects, college exams, and trying to figure out what I want to do with my life, adding another human to the equation seems mathematically impossible.
Also, dating isn't really "my thing." Whatever that means. I think I just convinced myself it wasn't my thing because it felt easier than admitting I have no idea how to navigate that world.
The Real Question
So here I am, oscillating between "I should focus entirely on school and building things" and "but what if she writes really good songs though?"
It's probably just my brain's way of procrastinating on OCaml. Like, "Hey, instead of learning functional programming, what if we overthink this person we barely know?"
Thanks, brain. Super helpful timing as always.
What Actually Matters Right Now
Tonight I'll celebrate my friend's birthday and try not to spiral about whether I bombed that electronics exam. Tomorrow I'll attempt to cram enough OCaml knowledge to not completely embarrass myself.
The song-writing girl will probably remain an interesting footnote in my overthinking journal, because let's be real - I can barely manage the priorities I already have.
But maybe that's okay. Maybe being 18 means your brain is allowed to wander to interesting people at inconvenient times. Maybe wondering about someone's creative process doesn't have to turn into a whole thing.
Or maybe I'm just really, really trying to avoid studying functional programming.
Day 96 of building in public. Still figuring out how to balance academics, ambitions, and the occasional interesting human.
The Dating Tips You Didn't Ask For (But I'm Giving Anyway)
Since you asked - if you do decide to explore this:
Start simple: "Hey, I heard you write songs. That's really cool - what kind of music do you write?" People love talking about their creative work.
Be genuine: Don't try to be someone you're not. If you're the type who builds things and codes and occasionally bombs electronics exams, own that energy.
Timing is what it is: Yeah, you don't have time. Neither does anyone else our age. That's not necessarily a dealbreaker.
Creative people are different: They see the world through a lens most people don't have. If you're interested, be prepared for conversations that go places you didn't expect.
But honestly? Focus on OCaml first. Songs will still exist after your exam.
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